A rant.
If there was any other way of explaining it I would opt for that, but perhaps there's nothing else I can use to define it with.
There are some limits in life which you never realize until very much near to the point of no-return, the point where a difference has to be made in order to make sense, to find something of substance to keep you motivated and understand that you are not a schedule or a set of appointments. I cannot pinpoint it to one thing, may be it is because of the expectations I have, being unable to attain my everyday goals, the lack of energy, the desire to simply sleep; or it is simply that I need a genuine break.
From what seems like an ordinary day, the morning drive to the hospital filled with traffic, the long queue at the entrance, inadequate and wrongly labelled samples, the headache, being unable to focus my attention on studying and the not so yielding eating habits.
You have to change something about yourself, something which you wear does not fit in with what you really are, I don't feel at peace, and it's something which painkillers don't make it better, there's the dull pain which ceases to leave. This highlights the urgency to transform yourself because you are at fault with your self, and this is simply not rewarding, it is crippling and draining. Looking back, it becomes evident that whenever a problem arose, it was simply covered up and not solved, this hoarding of issues results in the flooding, just like at the dam. This one, however, is more disastrous, for this shakes you inside out.
This is quite simply a rant, but may be there are others who might be on the same path, indeed we may not be at the very same level, but nonetheless it is quite similar.
There are some limits in life which you never realize until very much near to the point of no-return, the point where a difference has to be made in order to make sense, to find something of substance to keep you motivated and understand that you are not a schedule or a set of appointments. I cannot pinpoint it to one thing, may be it is because of the expectations I have, being unable to attain my everyday goals, the lack of energy, the desire to simply sleep; or it is simply that I need a genuine break.
From what seems like an ordinary day, the morning drive to the hospital filled with traffic, the long queue at the entrance, inadequate and wrongly labelled samples, the headache, being unable to focus my attention on studying and the not so yielding eating habits.
You have to change something about yourself, something which you wear does not fit in with what you really are, I don't feel at peace, and it's something which painkillers don't make it better, there's the dull pain which ceases to leave. This highlights the urgency to transform yourself because you are at fault with your self, and this is simply not rewarding, it is crippling and draining. Looking back, it becomes evident that whenever a problem arose, it was simply covered up and not solved, this hoarding of issues results in the flooding, just like at the dam. This one, however, is more disastrous, for this shakes you inside out.
This is quite simply a rant, but may be there are others who might be on the same path, indeed we may not be at the very same level, but nonetheless it is quite similar.
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