Lemonade, last week of July and an interesting bit from The Fall
I finally finished The Fall by Albert Camus, surprisingly it took me quite a few days to get through with it even though it was just 92 pages. First of all, it takes sometime to get onto the level where you are able to enjoy it, to learn from it and to ponder about it and secondly, it simply forces you to look inside yourself and that gives a sort of a liberating feeling, which to be honest is quite difficult to explain properly, however, it is simply like connecting the dots once you get the hang of it.
The beauty lies in not the maze of complexity which you will find yourself lost in, but simply in questioning a lot of the things that come to your mind.
For example, if you have the book, then do turn to page number 47 and the tenth line I think, here he mentions one of the most beautiful bits of the book, something that resonates inside of you and makes you search for the meaning of what punishment really is and who are you punishing. Out of courtesy or because of being naive, we like to think that our suffering will effect others and attract their attention and at the finest, punish them and satisfy that desire. But, the thing to ponder is, would my suffering, would me putting myself in harm's way or hurting myself punish me or someone else. To give you a better perspective, think about the beggar who comes to your table as you are enjoying the evening tea with scones with cream and jam, or perhaps you fancy coffee, so when you're having that cup of espresso or latte or whatever is it that you want to drink while reading this post. He maybe handicapped, he may be wearing ragged clothes, he may even be suffering from diabetes or something else for that matter, but tell me what would most of us do, try to look the other way, try to distance this intrusion from the perfect evening.
Does his suffering pain you? Do you feel punished, most probably no. Some people would feel the pain but not the vast majority. Now, just think about someone you knew who recently passed away, either due to natural causes or due to suicide, we feel sad for a little while but then if you turn around, yes, look behind in that corner you would find two people having a good laugh, you would hear someone say "it's terrible that he chose suicide, why would you want to end your life" and you might even hear someone whispering that he wasn't a man enough.
You can simply never judge how a person acted in a certain situation because you can not put yourself in their shoes, if you could then you'd have to think like them as well, and that doesn't sound too easy or too comfortable either.
Most of the people won't be effected at all, the people we thought would be shaken to the core rarely even think about what and why this happened.
So what about the idea of my suffering, shouldn't it pain others and bring them on their knees and accept their mistakes. Make them love me and all that? Well, simply the answer is NO. You see, humans are selfish, we tend to look out for our best interests and what doesn't fall in that category is removed from our list of necessities. This is both good and bad news as well, first let's look at why its bad news. People don't feel the pain, they blame you, they start to judge you, soon you are attacked with words of everything that would be counted far far away from the realms of empathy and you will be made to look like a criminal, even though you may simply be the victim. Is it worth it? Absolutely not.
Now how is it good news, I always thought my friends would be pained to death to hear about my suffering. You just found out that they don't actually give a sh!t and you should be happy cause you don't have to give one either for everything that you see happening in the world. it's better not to be a spectator and hog the space if you can't do anything productive for the events that are happening. With this awareness, you need to accept that 98% of the people won't give a f#@k and the remaining 2 percent already care about you. these days people copy paste messages without even reading them properly, you wanted to wish your friend Ahmad on his birthday but you copied the message you sent to your landlord in the hope of getting in their good books. Jeez, you forgot to erase the part about being late with the rent this month. Talk about not having the lady luck on your table.
Your life is important, it gives you the chance to see a new day and with it the opportunity to make a difference in whatever way you can. Your emotions are sacred, don't waste them on others. You don't want their cold hearts to put off the warmth that you have inside your soul.
It's the last few days of July in 2020, and it's been a mix year. It did teach the significance of unpredictability, and that is it's beyond comprehension. I should probably get myself another glass of lemonade, I feel tired and thirsty now.
Thanks for reading!
The beauty lies in not the maze of complexity which you will find yourself lost in, but simply in questioning a lot of the things that come to your mind.
For example, if you have the book, then do turn to page number 47 and the tenth line I think, here he mentions one of the most beautiful bits of the book, something that resonates inside of you and makes you search for the meaning of what punishment really is and who are you punishing. Out of courtesy or because of being naive, we like to think that our suffering will effect others and attract their attention and at the finest, punish them and satisfy that desire. But, the thing to ponder is, would my suffering, would me putting myself in harm's way or hurting myself punish me or someone else. To give you a better perspective, think about the beggar who comes to your table as you are enjoying the evening tea with scones with cream and jam, or perhaps you fancy coffee, so when you're having that cup of espresso or latte or whatever is it that you want to drink while reading this post. He maybe handicapped, he may be wearing ragged clothes, he may even be suffering from diabetes or something else for that matter, but tell me what would most of us do, try to look the other way, try to distance this intrusion from the perfect evening.
Does his suffering pain you? Do you feel punished, most probably no. Some people would feel the pain but not the vast majority. Now, just think about someone you knew who recently passed away, either due to natural causes or due to suicide, we feel sad for a little while but then if you turn around, yes, look behind in that corner you would find two people having a good laugh, you would hear someone say "it's terrible that he chose suicide, why would you want to end your life" and you might even hear someone whispering that he wasn't a man enough.
You can simply never judge how a person acted in a certain situation because you can not put yourself in their shoes, if you could then you'd have to think like them as well, and that doesn't sound too easy or too comfortable either.
Most of the people won't be effected at all, the people we thought would be shaken to the core rarely even think about what and why this happened.
So what about the idea of my suffering, shouldn't it pain others and bring them on their knees and accept their mistakes. Make them love me and all that? Well, simply the answer is NO. You see, humans are selfish, we tend to look out for our best interests and what doesn't fall in that category is removed from our list of necessities. This is both good and bad news as well, first let's look at why its bad news. People don't feel the pain, they blame you, they start to judge you, soon you are attacked with words of everything that would be counted far far away from the realms of empathy and you will be made to look like a criminal, even though you may simply be the victim. Is it worth it? Absolutely not.
Now how is it good news, I always thought my friends would be pained to death to hear about my suffering. You just found out that they don't actually give a sh!t and you should be happy cause you don't have to give one either for everything that you see happening in the world. it's better not to be a spectator and hog the space if you can't do anything productive for the events that are happening. With this awareness, you need to accept that 98% of the people won't give a f#@k and the remaining 2 percent already care about you. these days people copy paste messages without even reading them properly, you wanted to wish your friend Ahmad on his birthday but you copied the message you sent to your landlord in the hope of getting in their good books. Jeez, you forgot to erase the part about being late with the rent this month. Talk about not having the lady luck on your table.
Your life is important, it gives you the chance to see a new day and with it the opportunity to make a difference in whatever way you can. Your emotions are sacred, don't waste them on others. You don't want their cold hearts to put off the warmth that you have inside your soul.
It's the last few days of July in 2020, and it's been a mix year. It did teach the significance of unpredictability, and that is it's beyond comprehension. I should probably get myself another glass of lemonade, I feel tired and thirsty now.
Thanks for reading!
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