March and it's surprises.

March always comes with some surprises. Last year I had gotten my visa for the PLAB exam and the next day I was here in the UK, this was all so spontaneous and I just hadn't anticipated it at all. So what's different this year, so many things! 

There are so many fears that we hold so close that really don't help us at all. When I stepped outside the airport so many fears gripped me, but things worked out. What the change required from me was accepting that things don't always go along as you want them to go. There will be times when you fail, now we think of failure as something bad. We invest so much to get to a certain place and then we do try but we fail, and that just f#ck$ everything up, doesn't it? You feel that you were cheated out of something and despite being good enough, you just couldn't. This is the emotional component, it is always good to have a feeling associated with an experience, that's what makes us human beings. We can use this feeling to think over things and see what can be improved. I used to be hell bent on thinking that whatever I know is good enough, time has taught me that there will always be someone who will be better than you. Sometimes what we know is good enough, and sometimes it's not. What we need to accept is that things can fail to work out, accepting that failure can exist makes us more realistic in our approach towards whatever it is. If we accept that something can fail, and if it means significant to us, we can try our best but if it doesn't mean significantly we can either just give it a go or save ourselves the trouble altogether. 

The moment you look back and think of things you realise that there was so much fear without the need for it. If you consider that there is a possibility of failure, you can work on all the aspects that can make you more likely to succeed. If you don't consider the possibility of failure, you don't work on the things that can be or should be improved and this will make you more likely to fail.