Friday, 28 April 2017


College organized a trip to an institute for the special needs children. I was pretty interested to see as how they can help these children integrate into  the society.
In this everyday society where your work is a pointer of your integration into the everyday life there was a question in my mind can they actually be integrated.
What I saw in that institute surprised me. The level of commitment, the hard work both by the facilitators and the children was just beyond imagination.
And then seeing what skills they are able to learn if their academic learning capacities are restricted, it really changed my mind.
What they make over there, the simple decoration pieces to a huge variety of things, I can see those around me in everyday life and that makes them integrated into this society

Sunday, 23 April 2017

Beach and a Ferry

Years ago I was at a beach in Yorkshire, when you think of a beach you want a nice, sunny day and have a bit of a gentle breeze blowing, the kind that just caresses past your body, gives a bit of shuffle to your hair, a breath of fresh air you inhale, sometimes you want to walk on the wet sand without your shoes, with each step you walk a tide of water touches your feet, you feel elevated into a sensation which is way beyond the description of words.
How about sitting on a the deck of ferry, setting your eyes on towards what lies beyond the waters, you are able to make out the faint outlines, but why look so far away in the distance when you are able to look at the waves of water flowing gently, the cool hue spreads, if you wore a turquoise ring you might have been able to relate to the feeling you would might have. Look closely, on the ferries ahead there are others who might be enjoying the same view or some who wouldn't be able to grasp the depth of what this view could mean, but rest assured you are the only one reading this description. May be you are the one who could paint it in your mind without having the need to look at an image to visualize, are you the one?
But if you do need a picture, do look below.
Taken by Khizra Imran, a very talented colleague of mine from college

Sunday, 9 April 2017


Exams, a few days of anxiety, stress, hard work, sometimes depression and then life comes back to it's normal levels again but what if you could keep life normal while going through such a time. What if you could do what you usually do and still be calm and confident enough when the big day comes along, I didn't study properly when I needed to (school) and I just floated along till I came to this stage of being a medical student, while I didn't do anything in school I didn't learn anything about stress, maintaining yourself and being calm, what did I learn after going through 3 years of exams was that no matter how hard you try if you can't maintain those final few minutes you can't expect a good result, you start good and then you carry that level of "good" to the very end.
You fall in the middle, you don't let that fall infect your end with a big fall, you pick yourself up and you walk through the middle placing your feet calmly and ensuring that you don't lose the balance.
So tomorrow is exam day for me and I'm trying to be calm, bit better at it then I used to be and now yeah things do make a bit more sense to me, in a few years to come every day would be an exam, an exam of how to deal with patients, how to get by the time when things are beyond humanly resources and when you just can't save a life, when you have to deal with the family of a patient and tell them their loved one couldn't make it, when you suffer some personal loss, when you can't make it to an important event just because your schedule didn't allow you to, it all will be an exam but what do you learn from it all, what you learn is how simple everything is, things just don't wait for anyone, you might wait for him/her but this world won't wait for you.
Before life teaches you things the hard way, try to make your own scheme of evaluating things and getting by. 
Hold on and you will get to have the golden reward of happiness, whether saving a life or whether having some personal level of happiness, it will all come by but if you work your way through different exams that you face, you will be able to enjoy these rewards much more cause you will know the value of happiness.

Tuesday, 4 April 2017

Coming around?

Years ago I was standing next to a swimming pool and out of curiosity I thought of landing a slap on the water inside the pool, as high I could as a 10 year old I raised my hand and brought it down as fast as I could and bam, I had received a pretty tough slap on my hand.
We hit, sometimes people, sometimes at things, expecting that it won't happen to us but when it happens it just gives some sense back and you realize how bad it feels and how tough you felt when you hit someone, either physically, emotionally or mentally. 
And then you realize oh I have had a pretty bad scorecard, you just sit around to wait patiently for things to come back and hit you.
Would it be a multiple of 2X or of the same intensity, I don't know but it will come just a matter of time.